love
what is love?
for me, love is an overused word. used by most, if not all, of the people all over the globe.. some even dont know what true love means... even i, dont...
is thinking of him all the time called love?
making all things favorable for him?
being happy just seeing him? (or maybe just seeing his nick on irc?)
being content knowing that he is happy?
looking forward to chat with him?
comparing him to all suitors and finding out no one could best him so you ditch them all?
infatuations?
not letting him know how you feel, for fear of losing the friendship, the closeness, the precious bond you have...
feeling bad knowing from him he found someone he feels he would love for the rest of his life...
being happy knowing they turned out bad and would never patch things up again...
feeling sorry for him (and vexed at her/him) after knowing (from him) that he/she didnt turn out to be what he expected... (she turned out to be gay)
feeling down knowing he decided not to love again... (there's no chance for you!)
wanting to die after knowing (seeing and feeling) that he and a close friend who knows all about your secret feelings for him, are already a couple...
wanting to kill that close friend of yours because of the possiblity that she might be gloating at the thought that she took the guy of your dreams from you...
feeling elated, wanting to jump up and down, just smile the rest of you life, after knowing that they didnt last long....
pure selfishness?
telling yourself to forget about him...
that you have a life to live...
that it's not all about him...
he's not worth it anyway...
he's not even that handsome...
and he's not even close to your ideals...
mitigation?
then just a simple word of endearment...
a simple smile...
a simple hello...
and it all gushes bakc in...
ARGHZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!
frustration
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